Have you ever wondered what it would be like to set a powerful intention into the Universe and have it be met with a clear and resounding “Yes!”?
Let me tell you, it’s the most amazing thrill ride filled with endorphins and excitement that you could ever imagine times 10! It’s beautiful and glorious; the stuff every dream come true storyline has ever consisted of. It’s also like all the plotlines from apocalyptic horror stories and disaster movies comes alive inside of every one of your molecules ripping you to shreds and challenging every belief you have about yourself and the world around you.
At least that’s what it’s been like for me. You see, I fell in love. And, before you ask, yes I am always this dramatic. I’m a storyteller. And this story isn’t just a love story where one boy meets one girl and they ride off into the sunset to live happily ever after. This is a polyamorous love story. My polyamorous love story. This love story isn’t just filled with sex and intrigue. It’s filled with the intention that I called into my experience of Life. My intention is to know relationship as a spiritual practice; to have an ever-expanding experience of Love.
As a minister and spiritual counselor I have known for quite some time that my willingness to live life as wholehearted and authentically as I possibly could means, for me, that I am being called love. Love takes many forms. Compassion, friendship, nurturing and family are ways in which we love and so is romantic love. For some souls in this world romantic love looks like meeting the one person that they want to spend their life with, maybe buy a house together and have some children. I think that’s great if it works for you. My vision of romantic love has always looked a little different than that. And, honestly, I’m not sure my picture is fully formed. I know I’m doing it though, loving.
That brings me back to the crux of this blog; falling in love while being in a loving marriage and being as open and honest about that as possible. I feel like this romantic connection has triggered every issue about love and relationship that I have ever had. Thoughts I didn’t know I believed to be true, past hurts I thought I had already worked through and sorrows I had forgotten have been bubbling to the surface for weeks. And as they show up, I have to address them or resist them until I make myself (and everyone around me) crazy.
So, here I am sharing my misadventures and musings on this beautiful, painful and imperfect road that I am on. I know it’s not a journey for everyone but it’s the one that I’m on and I am trying to stay present to every step.